The past few days have been really rough on me especially because I am 2,000 miles away from my family... family who are all grieving for Brant together. It is particularly hard for me because I am here all by myself trying to deal with my feelings. Stew is trying to be supportive and help me, and I know that he knows what I am going through...... but in someways it hasn't helped the way I thought it would.
I can't sleep well...... every time I close my eyes I see Brant in my mind. A new memory coming to mind each time. There is not going to be a day that won't go by where I won't miss him. He has and always will have a very special place in my heart...... and now all I can do is hold onto all of those memories I have of him.
So I decided that I am going to write them all down. It will definitely be difficult and I will most likely cry the entire time I write them down, but I want Ethan and Ryan to know him by the time we see him again.
So Brant...... there are going to be MANY more posts... in memory of you. And I also promise that, even though it is going to be extremely hard on me, I am going to get up and bear my testimony next Sunday. I want every one to know the love I have for the Gospel and for you.
I love you, Brant! Always remember that!!
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